So here I am sitting at Mamma's house on her computer while her and Katya are watching a movie. I am thinking about the next few days and what is about to come...I shall explain......
I need to be out of my parents by the first of next month and I have a bus ticket too Lakeland FL. But now there is nowhere too go in FL. I would like to stay here but see with my drinking days I burned a lot of bridges.....funny that I mention bridge because right now that is where I am going to be calling home again shortly. If not here in Findlay then In Lakeland. The scariness of it is so real right now. I know I can do it but the fact is I don't want to go back to the bridge. I love Findlay but if I am going to be homeless once again why not change sites??? My life has seem to go nowhere but hopefully it will one of these days. But I am also afraid that being homeless again will cause me to drink again! My drunken days made me burn all those bridges. So now comes the question what to do?
Since the loss of the twin I have had time to sit back and really take a look at life and where it should be. It should be where ever I am happy but can also make a living. Could I ever make a living??? Yeah I could I just need a little help on getting there. Is there anybody that can help?? Yeah I got my family here in Findlay...what was that.....stay with my family??? Well that is a story not to get into but in all put together their really not blood family so they really have no obligation to even care what happeneds to me.
Any advice???
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