The final word

I am sitting in Panera and I have been looking back into the past and asking God what it is He wants me to do next.
My Jouney has been long, it seems like I am walking in circles trying to go foward.
The last couple of weeks have been crazy dealing with rejection, truth, love, hunger, nightmeres, miscommunication, feelings of other, fights, arguments, hurt feelings and aloneness.
This blog is going out to everybody,
The situation between me and a couple other are hard and were left untouched so it goes unsolved. To these two people I just want to say
I was blessed by your company and I love you so much and you are the ones that lead me to Christ and I could never forget that and so I could never forget you or what a change you put in my life. Feelings were hurt and things were spicy but this is my chance to apologize and say sorry. The love that I have for you are unexplained and I cannot explain it. If you chose to read this I hope you will read with your heart as I am writing with my heart.

Next would be the people that was involved in a disagreement earlier this month. We all jumbed on each other when all we did was look at it with our eyes and typed with our hands when we should have asked God to let us see it through His eyes and we should have asked God to let Him type for us. I am ashamed to say that I did not ask God for help. I do apologize to everyone that was involved in that disagreement.

Now comes the people that I am with right now.
I know I can be hard please forgive me.
I know the thing we talked about was an idea, I just don't feel like I would do good and yes I am praying about it.
If I have made it this far with God and myself I can make it a little farther.
Please do not take it personally I just can't handle things like that.

I would also like to ask for the fogivness of the LORD for I have sinned and I am ashamed of how my life is working. I pray and lift it all to You that You will lead me into Your work and do only what You want me to do!
I pray that everytime I fall down You never give up on me but always be there to pick me up and dust me off! LORD Your grace and mercy is so powerful and I praise You that you forgive and love me no matter where I am or what I do!!!!! AMEN