Don;t get me wrong I love where I am at I live in a nice home with nice people. I have clean clothes and a warm place to sleep. I have more than enough food to eat and Polar Pops like crazy!!! Where I live is very clean and people actually help clean. The van I ride in and sometimes drive is a very sweet ride compared to what I was riding in and driving!
When I go into town for some reason I feel at home......That is because that is what I was so use too!!
When I hit the bars I feel at home......That is because that is wear I feel welcomed!
But why....because that is how I lived for almost two years!
I felt like I was loved at bars because guys paid attention to me.
This is where I found comfort and I am afraid sometimes to leave it. I am afraid sometimes of what my old friends would say about the change in me.
But then this verse comes to mind.....(Palms 27:1)
"The LORD is my light and my salvation- whom should I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life- of whom should I be afraid?"
Yes I agree the LORD is AWESOME
Giving up drinking has been a challenge. I have always fallen back on drinking when things get rough. As you have probably figured I am a recovering alcoholic. But lately that is NOT what I have been falling back on anymore!
But when I read my Bible and I read:
"Then Pilate took Jesus and had him Flogged. The soldiers also twisted together a crown of thorns, put it on His head, and threw a purple rob around Him. And they repeatedly came up to Him and said "Hail, King of Jews!" and were slapping His face." (John 19:1-3)
"When Jesus had received the sour wine, He said "it is finished!" Then bowing His head, He gave up His Spirit." (John 19:30)
Wow Jesus really had a rough time and reading John 19:30 even brought a tear to my eye!!! Jesus gave Himself know what would happen! This is what love is!!! But I continue to read and the further I get the more I see here is what comes after He was beaten and nailed:
"When they came to Jesus, they did not break His legs since they saw that He was already dead. But one of the soldiers pierced His side with a spear, and at once blood and water came out." (John 19:33-34)
Wow even when they thought He was dead they still had to attack Him!
So now I look at things and think
If God had His own son go through all that to save me from my sins, I think I can sacrifice my little drinking problem!
So before you think you can't sacrifice something look and see what God gave for your sins....JESUS!!!!!!
ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE THROUGH CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AMEN AMEN
AMEN is right!
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