Imperfection

I am sitting here eating ice cream that had already been lick and also licked by the dog. I am also using a computer that I should not be using. My teeth hurt from not taking care of them I guess. My wrist hurt from not following my doctors orders. I yelled at a good friend because I feel abandon by her absence. I am very weak in a friendship because of the truth and I am also mad at people and they don't even know I am mad at them but with the snippy remarks I think maybe they are catching on.
Now comes my point........I am saved.....I have it tattooed on my hand!
Now look at all the things I am not doing right.
I look and I thank God that he did make me imperfect!
Imagine if we all were make perfect how boring life would be???
I actually enjoy learning from my mistakes and thanking God everyday for a new one!
I get so scared thinking that my depression will get the best of me but then I stop and think and I got something I didn't have before............GOD...........and he will get me through this and I will come out stronger!
I can then thank God for making me suffer! NO JOKE!!!
We actually never realize this but thanking Him for making you suffer through something is a great deal!
We should all do it more often!
In my mind I see it as this.....there are 2 different types of suffering
Non-Christ suffering and With Christ suffering......
The only difference between these is that I have God on my side!
That means even when I feel alone I know I am NOT.....GOD is always there!
But without Him you are alone and that is why we see people on the drugs and people becoming alcoholics and even people committing suicide.........It is a scary thing but it does happen!
I have lost 2 great friends too suicide.........
It does not just hurt their family it hurts the people that have always been there too.!
Even though a good friend of mine killer herself 5 years ago it still hurt even to this day!
I use to deal with the pain by cutting and by drinking but it really never completely made it stop hurting!
Now that I am saved and have found new ways to suffer.....
I look to GOD to help me through it!
I still have thoughts about her and I do cry over it too and sometimes I just want to go and see her but I know in the Lake of Fire I won't see her!
So I start to cry out for GOD to help me and get me through all of this!
I notice that each time He does help me!
And i can start praising Him not only for helping me get through the depression but also for making me go through the hard time because in the end He has made me so much stronger and each time I can stand a little bit higher!
I am going to end this by asking you this one question.............
What kind of sufferer are you?