The changing life

Ok so I know i was not going to blog anymore but I have decided to.
I have come too notice a weird but awesome feeling. I have also come to the realization that life is life but life is olny as awesome as the people in it. I have God so mine is very awesome! The people that surround me know that i struggle and struggle a lot. They deal with me an I know that I am not easy at all.
to think how much i put people through is depressing. and i am greatly sorry to these people around me. I try to be nice for God and live life like He wants me too. I am currently in a home of people that greatly care for God, the struggles that come to us are things God helps us through.

I'm scared

I have a few concers about things. Tina Juantez, hoping I do good so I can stay......that is always a concern of mine. it seems like everytime i turn around im homeless or getting kickout of another place........it is almost safest to live under a bridge because there i know i cant get kicked out.

God has really done something in my life and i have messed up a lot but all i can do is keep pushing satan away and pulling God closer.

Blogging bye bye

Ok this was very fun and help me share my feeling but in the procces I have hurt a person or two. So......this will be my last blog so feelings can be spared and my life can have a little relife! Please God help me!

Internet Studies 5............The Challenges of Life

So my situations are complex and very hard! I dont miss my old life but I miss things. Let me explain!I life in a wonderful house with wonderful people. They are very nice and caring and I love them to death! I have food that is not out of the dumpster and I can shower in a shower and not in a creek. I can wash my clothes and I dont stink! What more could some person want???


In a way I guess me..........There are some things I cannot do here and I am missing it a lot!


It has been 10 years since I have lived in a sturctured home and now that I acuaaly got rules it is getting to me!I feel as if I am trapped but I know that is so not the case because it is my chose wheather or not to walk out of that door. But I am afraid that if I do I will go back to the old ways. I don't even want to go into town by myself because I am afraid I will do something stupid and make the diswsapointed in me.I really want to change but way does it have to make me feel so trapped?I am going through a deep depression that is keeping me from enjoying things right now. It is hard to know why theses things come up but for me anything can triger it!


Today it was seeing everybody outside playing wiffle ball. I couldnt go out there because there were just to many people and it was scaring me! And it is depressing to know that I cannot do things like that......like a normal person!

People started to come in and I got very nervus and backed into a cornor and then was basically told to leave because I looked funny being in the cornor! It is hurting me knowing I cannot do what other people do so easily! So people talked to me and that was ok but I just want to be normal..........I long to be someone else to know hoiw it feels to be around people and not care.


I dont understand why I am the way that I am but it is just me!Sometimes I just hate being me..................................

The World

The sad part about living as a Christian is that you cant make people become saved. A lot of people that I know have been passing away and they were not saved. It hurts me to know that I am not going to ever see them again! My Granpa Vasquez passed away and at first I didnt really care and now that everything is hitting me it is upsetting! Not because he is dead but because I never got a chance to let him speak for himself. He ran away from his family and then came back. I never cared for him but when I got saved I forgave him but still wanted to know what he had to say about all this! I have not seen him in years and now that he is gone I really want to see him one last time! All this makes me realize that nobody lives forever physically and God can take you at any moment.
I think God is great and He love it when we scream His name So we need just to shout His name and we can change the world! We need to realize that we the Christians can do so much more that we are doing! Lets get out the and start RIGHT NOW! Give a little more......come on..What are you waiting for?

Internet Studies 4 Fave Bible verse

"In the past you wasted too much time doing what nonbelievers enjoy. You were guilty of sexual sin, evil desires, drunkeness, wild and drunken parties, and hateful idol worship. Nonbelievers think it is strange that you do ot do the many wild and wasteful things they do, so the insult you. But they will have too explain this to God, who is ready to judge the living and the dead."
-1 Peter 4:3-5


This is one of my favorite verses because I feel like it relates to just about everybody before they were saved. It explaine that people do insult people od Christ and in the end it is God your going to face..........are you ready???